Lizas home for the holidays!

so i stayed at grandmas house over the weekend because catie went to frezno for band and i stayed home. so grandma and i went shopping for christmas and also had maltz and hashbrowns..my favorite treat when i come to grandmas house :) on sunday during the evening mom and dad were going to come up to grandmas with eliza.. they walked in the door and i tackled liza to the ground.. ive had a lot of friend drama this last couple weeks and usually during this time id go to liza for advise and shed help me deal with it and help me get threw it but she hasnt been home to do so..shes finally home and we can finally talk..for the next week we can hang out and do stuff like we use to.. when thanks giving ends im going to be sad but it will only be 3 weeks till i see her again :).. love ya liza :)

summer '09

summer has been interesting..

in the begining i started mini band camp..it was fun till catie fainted..

then we got a break for a little while..in the time period i hung out with my bestfriends ashley and lauren.

then mini band camp started up again..

that just ended and im about to finish up my last few days of summer befor basicly summer is over for me because band takes up the rest..which in my opinion sucks but what ever..

in these last days..i moved houses..thank goodness though i dint move wards for church..i went to the orange county fair with family..i injoyed walking around and looking at all the cool stuff..

i also went to the beach a couple times..it was fun :)

the only bad part of summer was today on auguest 5th 2009..grandpa pasted after a tough couple months of horrible radiation and other fancy tests...im sad :(

Mondays..

this is the first week that i havent had seminary and so far..it sucks

i got up almost to late and now im very tired..i wish it didnt end :[

well only 2 more weeks of school till summer..then only a couple weeks till marching band starts up again..im determined to get throw this next year even stronger now that i know what im getting myself in too..pluss this year my little sister will be there :]

the first week of marching band ill be at girls camp..hopefully this wont effect anything...

i hope summers not tooken up to much by band so i have a few days to hang out with my non-band member friends..

tough couple days..

i was sitting at the computer listening to some music when a little spider in the corner caught my eye..it was trying to make a web but the fan that was blowing twards it and making the web move to much so i turned the fan off. then it got caught in its own web and after a coupld min. got it self lose and continued working on its web finally it was with out any issue and it could continue working on its web with out a problem then catie came up behind me screamed and killed it..poor little spider dint even have a chance to complete its web.. thinkin about what happend made me think about how i go through struggles and how i work through them and keep goin..

spring break!

my spring break so far has been amazing!

monday i went to my friend savannahs and matthews property and

matt taught me how to shot a gun and ride a dirt bike 

im still suprized that i dint fall off and kill my self but it was awesome!

i really like hanging out with them there alot of funn!

tuesday i went to my aunt sandys and brang my best friend ashley with me it was funn we were going to go swimming but it was wayyy too cold! 

after hangiing out with my aunt sandy she drove us over to barbras house and we saw her horses! 

after that we went home for a little while and cleaned up then headed over to the church for young womens

there we learned things about doing laundrey!

wensday i went shopping with ash and got some really cute shoes and a t-shirt!! 

today is thursday i think it will be just a lazy day well after i finish the long list of chorus my mother made up for me to do :/ i love my mom but i hate chorus!!!!

YoUtH CoNfReNcE

i hate thursdays..we should just skip them and go straight to fridays..but i dont want friday to come cuz i have a band thing

i for got to write about youthconfrence soo i think ill write about it now

it started off a lil roof but it got better as it started to get in too it

it started off with a dance and that was alot of funn then we went to are house family to meet the people on the boys side and i knew a couple people which was nice..then we went posum hunting wich was AWESOME it was a ton of funn

then we went too sleep and woke up and got ready for the servis project..we had a carnival for special needs it was alot of funn i wrked at the sand pit were you dug for barry treasure then we went back to are house familys house and hung out with everyone then we got ready for the big dinner then we went to testimony meeting and after that had sundays..i love youth confrence its always a ton of funn! i cant wait till next year

I GOTTT AN A+ YAY!

today in science we were takeing a test on chapters 14 and 15 and it was about the ocean

and right now im not doing to hott in science 

im passing but its not the letter grade i wont

but today we took the test and i got an A!!!!!

thats a big deal for me!!! and i proved all my teachers wrong!!! i cant wait to tell my mom when she gets home shes going to be so proud of me!!!!!

sunday

today was alright..quiet simple

i feel kinda relaxed

just a bit melancholly about som stuff

but its all good

put a smile on your face:]

goodness.. yesterday i had such a bad day but today is just so much better!

i got to gather my thoughts and just rest and it really did help!!

well im better!!

and kinda bored!

over my head

i dont know whats wrong...i dont know how i feel...

i dont wanna talk about it..i  feel lost and scared like i cant beathe!

i dont feel like i belong here and i feel like im gonna exsplode!

i dont know...

i wish everything was back to normal...my life feels like its squishing me 

and i cant get out

everythings gotten so much hard and i feel really nervouse all the time and like no one cares anymore and im trapped...i want too scream half the time..

everythings happening so fast

i dont know what to do anymore...i feel like im going around in circles and people are watching me threw a glass wall ..and i need to put on a show for them..what happened? i felt like my life was finally comeing back together...and then...it died again and everythings messed up 

im not depressed...im just scared

 

chicken fried

i was listening to this song called Chicken Fried by Zac Brown and it just really reminded me of how much i really miss illinois. the long summers and the butt frezzeing winters...staying out till the street lights go on and in Normal it was diffrent..there wasnt all this stress put down on me..sure i have made a TON of friends here but i miss not argueing about little things no offense but...California people are kinda angrey! they nerver look on the bright side of things there always so negative...i miss driveing threw corn feilds and haveing only 2 malls haha i miss haveing ice 5 inches thick on the streets and haveing school close because its -29 degress! i miss not careing if i had desighner jeans or fancy earings.. i liked haveing one public pool that EVERYONE went to and playing down at the park with all your friends. getting too go out with out a cell phone or your mother worrying that someone would kid nape you! i miss going to school and haveing a locker!!! its nice here but its just not the same..ill get used too liveing here but ill always remember how much more fun a small town was!

saddness

im sad..liza mad it to BYU.. i should be happy for her...but im not...i dont want her to leave!

Babysitting!

Last night Savannah,Erin and Josh came over while are parents went out. we had an eventful night of movies and pizzas. we basically vegged all night.. but it was all good. i enjoy hanging out with them cuz i dont get to see them very often sence they live in Reno! On Sunday we hung out again only with the whole family.. they leave wensday back to reno.. but in till then were still gonna party like rock stars.. and pluss me and savannah have to finish are game of miss marry mack!!

yup :]

hanging out with my friends

Today i went to ashleys house for her birthday it was alot of fun we watched movies and danced all night. i enjoyed going to the park the next day. My freinds are the only people and can goof off to and be my self with out careing wat they think..im happy about that! 

:]

my birthday 1/17/09

Today was my birthday. im finally 15! i had my friends ashley and lauren sleep over the night befor and it was a blast we had makeovers and listened to music and laughed alot. we finally fell asleep at 2:00am and woke up because of my puppys wanted to go out side at 5:30. we had my fav. breakfast. then it was time to get ready for the big family lunch! i had it at my fav. restaraunt MiMis Cafe. it was really yummy. my hole family was there. after that i got ready to go to down town disney with my friends. liza drove us with some of her friends it was a ton of fun. we went to lego land and this lady drew a picture of me and i almost fell in to the fountin. we also went to libby lus and my friends bought me its my birthday sash and a crown. after that we headed to burger kind cuz we were starveing! it was yummy i had a whopper!! haha and thats bout it!

i love being 15!

my lil sister

Caties going in for surgery soon and i hope it goes well. i know we argue sometimes but shes still my little sister and i really worry about her. i would half to say she really is my bestfriend we do almost everthing together. pluss all my friends love her. i think some times im a little over protective. espacially when someones picking on her or school drama gets too hard for her. i love catie alot and if anything ever happens to her i dont know what i would do shes my only little sister i hope the surgery goes well and she can stop being in pain. when i see her in pain it makes my chest feel like its going to blow up. when they talk about the surgery she seems totaly ok with the thought of it. if i were her i would be freaking out. shes alot stronger then me. i remember when i first started learning to ride a bike with no training wheels catie wanted to learn to and when i fell down i remember crying really hard.. but when catie fell down she just got right back up on that bike and tryed again. i love catie very much!! i think she gets annoyed by me sometimes but thats ok as long as she knows i love her!!

Aunt Sandys!!

The last day of break i went to my aunt sandys it was so much fun as usual!!!

i love going to her house! this time my cousins Jordan and Dylan were there. they brought there rock star and gutar hero. i really stink at those games but it was alot of fun. Uncle Dave let us have a bon fire it was fun till the wood started poping cuz it was wet. I wish we could hang out with Jordan and Dylan more often we barely ever get to see them. This visit was even more fun because my cousin Olivia got to go. shes so funny she can make any one laugh. the night befor we went up to aunt sandys Olivia slept over and we prank called some of my friends the line we said was "Pacos tacos whats your beef?" hahahaha the reaction was so funny. i love hanging out with Olivia! we toke tons of pictures and had tons of laughs. A funny part about this trip is Olivia brang the House Bunny its a really gurly funny movie.Jordan and Dylan also watched it with us and they too liked it hahahaha i cant wait to go back to hang out with everyone again!! I love my family because there more fun then my friends sometimes!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

   HAPPY NEW YEARS KERA!!!!!

   HAPPY NEW YEARS WITH KERA!!!!

I went to my grandmas house for New years. it was a ton of fun. We had a early new years for Kera cuz she had to go to bed early. We danced all around in till we couldnt scream any more. Then we stayed up till 11:30 watching the twilight zone they had a marathon on and it was really cool to see all the old movies and they were funny.me and franni desided we would call my friend TJ too see if he was tired.. he wasnt lol. it was finally 11:50 and we were getting ready.. we started counting down..5..4..3..2..1!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! we sprung from the floor and ran to the front door..it was locked... that didnt stop us we ran to the office door..it was locked too..we ran to the back door..it was LOCKED!!! who locks the door on new years!!!?!?!?!?!?!? that didnt stop the party we danced and yelled till grandma yelled at us!! i was kinda sad that new years night was over cuz it would be the last time i would have new years with Eliza befor she goes off to college..i really dont want her to leave everything will be so diffrent when shes gone..nothing will be the same..the only good part is ill get her room :( 

SCANDIA!!!!

A day befor new years eve my church had a dance. the  cool thing about this dance is that it was at scandia. Scandia is a theme park with miniture golf rides and danceing. the cool part about this dance is we got to have a count down like it was new years it was pretty awsome. i hung out with my best friends Ashley and Lauren. it was a lot of fun. the best part was the roller coaster we went on that like 7 times. I loved danceing with my friends. Ashleys dad drove Lauren and I home. it was fun. we danced in the car to stayin alive..hahahahaha then her dad started messing around with the car and we drove up really really fast then he slamed on his breaks.. by the 5th time we all felt really sick. Lauren was first dropped off. as we started to my house brother coughrof must have forgotten i was in the car cuz he drove all the way to there house then relized i was in the back and so he had to drive me all the way back. i had a ton of funn.. the next church dance is on my birthday and im really exsighted!!!