My Lifee

Grandpas house

2010-11-26T18:04:00.000-08:00

since i was little my Grandpa Gibsons back yard has been the same.. it always had the garden.. the weird rectangular shaped trampoline and the old tree house.. well now that he has passed.. things have changed.. my grandma got a new door.. has tooken down nearly every tree.. and even the furniture has changed.. and yes i know we need to not dwell in the past.. but its hard when thats all ive ever known..

with all this going on.. it has made me think about all my memories with my grandpa..

when i was little he use to take us in the backyard and we use to pretend that the ground was lava but only grandpa could touch it.. and he would carry us from the trampoline to the tree house over and over again.. never saying he was tired or needing a break..

i also remember going to his house and watching Bye Bye Birdy and Cats. i dont know how grandpa could stand sitting there watching them over and over again in till dinner was ready.

another memory i remember is my grandpa built the whole balcony back then the steps use to be green.,. but any who when he was all done building he took my sisters and i up there and said. "girls you can do anything you put your mind to"

To be honest it is extremely hard for me to see everything change now that hes gone.. sometimes i wish it was all just a bad dream and that he would walk down the stairs wearing his red apron and white pressed shirt on a Sunday evening ready to read "i spy a Nephite" for the millionth time.

its been awhile..

2010-10-04T21:12:00.001-07:00

wow.. its definetly been awhile sense ive post something..

I'm no longer a sophomore.. and my hair is definitely a different color

i guess i stopped posting because a lot of things in my life were going wrong.. lots of family deaths.. my grades weren't good and i had to find new friends.. because the ones i had before weren't exactly the right crowd i needed to be hanging out with..

being a junior now.. i will definitely try harder to write in my blog..

but sense i'm already talking about my junior year..

id like to add that i'm hanging out in a better crowd..and at the moment i have straight As.. that has never happened to me.. this year ill be driving in my first hill climb.. getting my license and figuring out what i want to do in my life.. maybe even move states..

well see..

Lizas home for the holidays!

2009-11-22T15:20:00.000-08:00

so i stayed at grandmas house over the weekend because catie went to frezno for band and i stayed home. so grandma and i went shopping for christmas and also had maltz and hashbrowns..my favorite treat when i come to grandmas house :) on sunday during the evening mom and dad were going to come up to grandmas with eliza.. they walked in the door and i tackled liza to the ground.. ive had a lot of friend drama this last couple weeks and usually during this time id go to liza for advise and shed help me deal with it and help me get threw it but she hasnt been home to do so..shes finally home and we can finally talk..for the next week we can hang out and do stuff like we use to.. when thanks giving ends im going to be sad but it will only be 3 weeks till i see her again :).. love ya liza :)

summer '09

2009-08-05T20:53:00.000-07:00

summer has been interesting..

in the begining i started mini band camp..it was fun till catie fainted..

then we got a break for a little while..in the time period i hung out with my bestfriends ashley and lauren.

then mini band camp started up again..

that just ended and im about to finish up my last few days of summer befor basicly summer is over for me because band takes up the rest..which in my opinion sucks but what ever..

in these last days..i moved houses..thank goodness though i dint move wards for church..i went to the orange county fair with family..i injoyed walking around and looking at all the cool stuff..

i also went to the beach a couple times..it was fun :)

the only bad part of summer was today on auguest 5th 2009..grandpa pasted after a tough couple months of horrible radiation and other fancy tests...im sad :(

Mondays..

2009-06-01T18:42:00.000-07:00

this is the first week that i havent had seminary and so far..it sucks

i got up almost to late and now im very tired..i wish it didnt end :[

well only 2 more weeks of school till summer..then only a couple weeks till marching band starts up again..im determined to get throw this next year even stronger now that i know what im getting myself in too..pluss this year my little sister will be there :]

the first week of marching band ill be at girls camp..hopefully this wont effect anything...

i hope summers not tooken up to much by band so i have a few days to hang out with my non-band member friends..

tough couple days..

2009-05-14T22:40:00.000-07:00

i was sitting at the computer listening to some music when a little spider in the corner caught my eye..it was trying to make a web but the fan that was blowing twards it and making the web move to much so i turned the fan off. then it got caught in its own web and after a coupld min. got it self lose and continued working on its web finally it was with out any issue and it could continue working on its web with out a problem then catie came up behind me screamed and killed it..poor little spider dint even have a chance to complete its web.. thinkin about what happend made me think about how i go through struggles and how i work through them and keep goin..

spring break!

2009-04-16T11:45:00.000-07:00

my spring break so far has been amazing!

monday i went to my friend savannahs and matthews property and

matt taught me how to shot a gun and ride a dirt bike

im still suprized that i dint fall off and kill my self but it was awesome!

i really like hanging out with them there alot of funn!

tuesday i went to my aunt sandys and brang my best friend ashley with me it was funn we were going to go swimming but it was wayyy too cold!

after hangiing out with my aunt sandy she drove us over to barbras house and we saw her horses!

after that we went home for a little while and cleaned up then headed over to the church for young womens

there we learned things about doing laundrey!

wensday i went shopping with ash and got some really cute shoes and a t-shirt!!

today is thursday i think it will be just a lazy day well after i finish the long list of chorus my mother made up for me to do :/ i love my mom but i hate chorus!!!!

YoUtH CoNfReNcE

2009-03-19T19:45:00.001-07:00

i hate thursdays..we should just skip them and go straight to fridays..but i dont want friday to come cuz i have a band thing

i for got to write about youthconfrence soo i think ill write about it now

it started off a lil roof but it got better as it started to get in too it

it started off with a dance and that was alot of funn then we went to are house family to meet the people on the boys side and i knew a couple people which was nice..then we went posum hunting wich was AWESOME it was a ton of funn

then we went too sleep and woke up and got ready for the servis project..we had a carnival for special needs it was alot of funn i wrked at the sand pit were you dug for barry treasure then we went back to are house familys house and hung out with everyone then we got ready for the big dinner then we went to testimony meeting and after that had sundays..i love youth confrence its always a ton of funn! i cant wait till next year

I GOTTT AN A+ YAY!

2009-03-02T16:27:00.000-08:00

today in science we were takeing a test on chapters 14 and 15 and it was about the ocean

and right now im not doing to hott in science

im passing but its not the letter grade i wont

but today we took the test and i got an A!!!!!

thats a big deal for me!!! and i proved all my teachers wrong!!! i cant wait to tell my mom when she gets home shes going to be so proud of me!!!!!

sunday

2009-02-22T17:02:00.000-08:00

today was alright..quiet simple

i feel kinda relaxed

just a bit melancholly about som stuff

but its all good

put a smile on your face:]

2009-02-16T18:33:00.000-08:00

goodness.. yesterday i had such a bad day but today is just so much better!

i got to gather my thoughts and just rest and it really did help!!

well im better!!

and kinda bored!

over my head

2009-02-15T19:24:00.000-08:00

i dont know whats wrong...i dont know how i feel...

i dont wanna talk about it..i feel lost and scared like i cant beathe!

i dont feel like i belong here and i feel like im gonna exsplode!

i dont know...

i wish everything was back to normal...my life feels like its squishing me

and i cant get out

everythings gotten so much hard and i feel really nervouse all the time and like no one cares anymore and im trapped...i want too scream half the time..

everythings happening so fast

i dont know what to do anymore...i feel like im going around in circles and people are watching me threw a glass wall ..and i need to put on a show for them..what happened? i felt like my life was finally comeing back together...and then...it died again and everythings messed up

im not depressed...im just scared

chicken fried

2009-02-12T19:10:00.000-08:00

i was listening to this song called Chicken Fried by Zac Brown and it just really reminded me of how much i really miss illinois. the long summers and the butt frezzeing winters...staying out till the street lights go on and in Normal it was diffrent..there wasnt all this stress put down on me..sure i have made a TON of friends here but i miss not argueing about little things no offense but...California people are kinda angrey! they nerver look on the bright side of things there always so negative...i miss driveing threw corn feilds and haveing only 2 malls haha i miss haveing ice 5 inches thick on the streets and haveing school close because its -29 degress! i miss not careing if i had desighner jeans or fancy earings.. i liked haveing one public pool that EVERYONE went to and playing down at the park with all your friends. getting too go out with out a cell phone or your mother worrying that someone would kid nape you! i miss going to school and haveing a locker!!! its nice here but its just not the same..ill get used too liveing here but ill always remember how much more fun a small town was!

saddness

2009-02-01T10:34:00.001-08:00

im sad..liza mad it to BYU.. i should be happy for her...but im not...i dont want her to leave!

Babysitting!

2009-01-26T21:56:00.000-08:00

Last night Savannah,Erin and Josh came over while are parents went out. we had an eventful night of movies and pizzas. we basically vegged all night.. but it was all good. i enjoy hanging out with them cuz i dont get to see them very often sence they live in Reno! On Sunday we hung out again only with the whole family.. they leave wensday back to reno.. but in till then were still gonna party like rock stars.. and pluss me and savannah have to finish are game of miss marry mack!!

yup :]

hanging out with my friends

2009-01-19T19:54:00.001-08:00

Today i went to ashleys house for her birthday it was alot of fun we watched movies and danced all night. i enjoyed going to the park the next day. My freinds are the only people and can goof off to and be my self with out careing wat they think..im happy about that!

my birthday 1/17/09

2009-01-18T15:39:00.000-08:00

Today was my birthday. im finally 15! i had my friends ashley and lauren sleep over the night befor and it was a blast we had makeovers and listened to music and laughed alot. we finally fell asleep at 2:00am and woke up because of my puppys wanted to go out side at 5:30. we had my fav. breakfast. then it was time to get ready for the big family lunch! i had it at my fav. restaraunt MiMis Cafe. it was really yummy. my hole family was there. after that i got ready to go to down town disney with my friends. liza drove us with some of her friends it was a ton of fun. we went to lego land and this lady drew a picture of me and i almost fell in to the fountin. we also went to libby lus and my friends bought me its my birthday sash and a crown. after that we headed to burger kind cuz we were starveing! it was yummy i had a whopper!! haha and thats bout it!

i love being 15!

my lil sister

2009-01-08T21:25:00.000-08:00

Caties going in for surgery soon and i hope it goes well. i know we argue sometimes but shes still my little sister and i really worry about her. i would half to say she really is my bestfriend we do almost everthing together. pluss all my friends love her. i think some times im a little over protective. espacially when someones picking on her or school drama gets too hard for her. i love catie alot and if anything ever happens to her i dont know what i would do shes my only little sister i hope the surgery goes well and she can stop being in pain. when i see her in pain it makes my chest feel like its going to blow up. when they talk about the surgery she seems totaly ok with the thought of it. if i were her i would be freaking out. shes alot stronger then me. i remember when i first started learning to ride a bike with no training wheels catie wanted to learn to and when i fell down i remember crying really hard.. but when catie fell down she just got right back up on that bike and tryed again. i love catie very much!! i think she gets annoyed by me sometimes but thats ok as long as she knows i love her!!

Aunt Sandys!!

2009-01-05T18:38:00.000-08:00

The last day of break i went to my aunt sandys it was so much fun as usual!!!

i love going to her house! this time my cousins Jordan and Dylan were there. they brought there rock star and gutar hero. i really stink at those games but it was alot of fun. Uncle Dave let us have a bon fire it was fun till the wood started poping cuz it was wet. I wish we could hang out with Jordan and Dylan more often we barely ever get to see them. This visit was even more fun because my cousin Olivia got to go. shes so funny she can make any one laugh. the night befor we went up to aunt sandys Olivia slept over and we prank called some of my friends the line we said was "Pacos tacos whats your beef?" hahahaha the reaction was so funny. i love hanging out with Olivia! we toke tons of pictures and had tons of laughs. A funny part about this trip is Olivia brang the House Bunny its a really gurly funny movie.Jordan and Dylan also watched it with us and they too liked it hahahaha i cant wait to go back to hang out with everyone again!! I love my family because there more fun then my friends sometimes!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

2009-01-05T18:23:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEARS KERA!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEARS WITH KERA!!!!

I went to my grandmas house for New years. it was a ton of fun. We had a early new years for Kera cuz she had to go to bed early. We danced all around in till we couldnt scream any more. Then we stayed up till 11:30 watching the twilight zone they had a marathon on and it was really cool to see all the old movies and they were funny.me and franni desided we would call my friend TJ too see if he was tired.. he wasnt lol. it was finally 11:50 and we were getting ready.. we started counting down..5..4..3..2..1!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! we sprung from the floor and ran to the front door..it was locked... that didnt stop us we ran to the office door..it was locked too..we ran to the back door..it was LOCKED!!! who locks the door on new years!!!?!?!?!?!?!? that didnt stop the party we danced and yelled till grandma yelled at us!! i was kinda sad that new years night was over cuz it would be the last time i would have new years with Eliza befor she goes off to college..i really dont want her to leave everything will be so diffrent when shes gone..nothing will be the same..the only good part is ill get her room :(

SCANDIA!!!!

2009-01-05T18:06:00.000-08:00

A day befor new years eve my church had a dance. the cool thing about this dance is that it was at scandia. Scandia is a theme park with miniture golf rides and danceing. the cool part about this dance is we got to have a count down like it was new years it was pretty awsome. i hung out with my best friends Ashley and Lauren. it was a lot of fun. the best part was the roller coaster we went on that like 7 times. I loved danceing with my friends. Ashleys dad drove Lauren and I home. it was fun. we danced in the car to stayin alive..hahahahaha then her dad started messing around with the car and we drove up really really fast then he slamed on his breaks.. by the 5th time we all felt really sick. Lauren was first dropped off. as we started to my house brother coughrof must have forgotten i was in the car cuz he drove all the way to there house then relized i was in the back and so he had to drive me all the way back. i had a ton of funn.. the next church dance is on my birthday and im really exsighted!!!

christmas is comeing!!

2008-12-21T20:36:00.000-08:00

Today is the first day of winter break!!

my family has done everything for getting christmas ready. wraping presents all the way to putting christmas lights up. Today mom told Eliza and I to seperate gifts in to familys because they were all mixed up under the tree. So me and Eliza were doing that when i came accross this bag under the tree reading the tag i got all exsighted because it said my name. i just had to peek. every fiber in my body were trying to stop me froming peeking As i moved towards it to take a peek i heard a large rip. it startled me and i jumped back. my elbow leaned to hard on a gift next to me and i ripped through the pretty shiny green christmas papper that was wrapped around my older sisters gift..i hurryed and ran to mom and asked her to fix it..i have now learned never to peek at a christmas gift ever again!!!!

2008-12-09T21:43:00.000-08:00

today was really aful,,
it first started with this really aful bad dream i had and i couldnt get back to sleep and it was exstremly scarey!!!
then i go to seminary and sis. johanson puts me between mathew, trae,greg, and parker.
and it was akward and werid. then i got to school and im almost late. i forgot my political cartoon in language but thank goodness cameron had to!then in science we had to study for the test and im so nervouse!! after school we had concert band practise and i shared a stand with marty and my keys kept sticking! after that my friend lauren promised me a ride home and she forgot and left me there so i ran all the way home.i got home and was out of breathe toke a drink of water then tried to get me and catie a ride to young womens tonight and i finally got one from my friend ashley when liza calls and saids shes on her way to pick us up so i had to re call ashley and tell her i dint need a ride and thankgoodness she just left her house because i was worried i wouldnt of gotten a hold of her and she would of been stuck knocking on my front door and be really angry cuz i dint call her to tell her. then i got in a fight with liza over it and we finally get to church i meet up with ashley and i talk to her for a little bit. we went to the single old womens houses and sang christmas songs and gave them flowers. and i was stuck talking to no one on the way back because the girls in the car were talking about how cool it was to take a secound language and i cant take one cuz of disability and i felt exstremly left out. then we get back to the church and have hot choclate and eat cookies and they dint tell us it was hot and i burnt the whole roof of my mouth! then mom and dad come to pick us up and they make us dance to get in the car and it was really embarressing and then mom and dad get mad at me cuz they got a recorded fone call from my science teacher mr. tran saying i dint do my homework when i was one of the only kids who did. i was so mad i was almost in tears. then we get home and the stupid lawn people tipped over my daddys lawn mower and he wasnt to happy bout that..so ya i just had a really sucky day!!

Temple Lights

2008-12-02T21:47:00.000-08:00

Today for are Tuesday young men young women combind activity we went to go see the LA temple turn its christmas lights on.It was a 2 hour drive because of the traffic but it was so worth seeing the gorgouse lights. Walking around temple grounds just made me want to get marryed in one, one day. Just knowing that if i do get marryed there ill be seiled to the one i love longer then life..Forever and Eternity. my seminary teacher sister johanson said just imagin those protesters trying to get on the sacred temple grounds,trying to jump the gate to distroy this precious thing we have. As me and Ashley (my best friend) stood there pictureing this it was just so hard and it hurt us to think that people that hevanly father had made would distroy something so important. I dont understand prop 8 and why we argue and all of this horrible stuff it just drives me crazy! I want everything to be in peace again. when i went to efy for the summer and being surounded by all thoughs people who belived the same as me and dint judge or try to hurt me it was easy to escap temptation but now comeing back from that its hard. i wish they would make like a efy school!! that would be so amazing, because we would just be around a good influence all the time and we wouldnt be distracted by the fowl language or the way others dressed. that would be so amazing!!

2008-11-30T09:45:00.000-08:00

Soo my cousins came to visit and they came alllll the way from reno and it was sooo much fun haveing them here. We dont get to see each other alot so when we do we do as much stuff together as possible! We went to my grandpa gibsons house and had dinner then the next day we went to BJs and it was good food just really bad servouse and took tons of pictures. The next day we went to a movie with the hole family and it was sooooo much fun. i wish we could do more stuff like that i love hanging out with my little cousins. to bad we dont all live next to each other or we could hang out even more!! i cant wait to see everyone during christmas when they all come out again!! last christmas everyone spent time together and it was just a lot of fun, we had presents and food and new years eve was sooo crazy we played games and toke pictures and it was just to much fun, i hope this year is just as good!!

Daddy leaves again

2008-11-28T20:31:00.000-08:00

when we lived in illinois my dad had to leave all the time because he worked in chicago.. but then he desided that was to tough so he desides to get a new job and finds one in california so then he leaves again to exsplore another place we might live..when everything seemed to look well for us in california we moved. i expected that to be the end to my dad leaveing all the time.. but once again it wasnt.. today was the last time "suposively" which means that he wont leave again but no one can say for sure that it wont happen again..im tired of him leaveing i just want him to stay home hes always gone and i just wish we could all spend more family time togather..with me and catie in band and eliza in choir were always leaveing the house but when thoughs activitys ended for the year i exspected that we would spend more time together but were not because dads always leaveing..hopefully this really is the last time ! hes gone so much my friends think my parents are devorsed.. and i know that he cant help but leave and that its really important because he puts food on the table and all that grown up stuff but its still hard and hes still gone!!

i really really REALLY hope their right when they say its the last time he leaves!

Band Geek!!

2008-11-27T12:04:00.000-08:00

well marching band is over and its really sad because we went to championships and it was fun but we got 9th place!!

but when we watched the video of us preforming on the way back to the hotel. that was are best preformance weve ever done. so mabe the judges dint think we did as good as everyone else or mabe there just stupid idk but all i know is at least we tryed!

i love marching band because were not just a band were a family, we do everything together and sure we fight but doesnt every family fight!! the only good part about marching band being over is we get to sit down in chairs!!

im gonna miss marching during half time our theme was ONE! it was amazing!

Thanksgiving!!

2008-11-27T09:20:00.000-08:00

Today is thanksgiving..YAY!
well its my first thanksgiving back in califonia and i dont like it..i exspected to wake up to the smell of turkey but no!!! i have to go to the turkey and leave my warm house travel in the rain and then eat..oh well i get to eat and then spend time with family!!
Thanksgiving is my secound fav. holiday. its basicaly a little speed bump befor christmas..and i get TWO this year..i havent had two thanksgivings in a very very long time! last thanksgiving i kinda had two thanksgivings cuz my dad wasnt home and when he came home we had another. My fav. part of Thanksgiving is the parade on TV. i love the danceing and the music. My 2nd fav. part is the eating. i love the turkey and the squash and the mashed tatters YUM! Not eating at home and seeing the way other people prepare thanksgiving is hard. On both sides of my family really the only thing the same is my daddys roles and the turkey! i hope this year everyone relizes that thanksgiving is about giving thanks on wat we have and its not about the totaly amazing beyond delious food that people prepare!